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Saturday, November 4th, 2006
1:31 am - just talking....
Well I'll be loosing another friend soon Spiritowl, She's now in the care of a Hospice, she had an hart attack and now her kidneys are going... She might have a week or a year, all i ever wanted is her happiness as i do with all my friends...
i don't know that if my seeing death as NOT a bad thing is good or not...
i respect her decision in not wanting the care that may extend her life an extra year...
as mutch I'll miss her and I'll redo her site, into a cyber memorial after she goes (a sigh of love and admiration....

perhaps after all this work to be compassionate i am?

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Monday, October 2nd, 2006

We the people of the United States undersigned agree and demand Free Heath Care within the entire United states and all properties herin...

We demand Free Heath and Dental Care for emergencies as well as General Heath Care and is not to include Cosmetic Surgery that is not of a reconstructive nature...

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8:02 am - Service Message - Free Web-sever - Host It Yourself Toys
Service Message - Free Web-sever - Host It Yourself Toys

surfing around Online i found some handy free host it yourself toys that i thought some people would find handy..........

AOLserver- -Digital UNIX, SCO, HPUX, Linux, Windows 9x, Windows NT, FreeBSD, IRIX, Solaris

AnalogX SimpleServer:WWW- -Windows 9x, Windows NT

Apache- -NetBSD, Digital UNIX, BSDI, AIX, OS/2, SCO, HPUX, Novell NetWare, Macintosh, Be OS, Linux, FreeBSD, IRIX, Solaris, Windows 9x, Windows NT

GoAhead WebServer- -HPUX, Embedded, Windows NT, Linux, QNX, IRIX, Windows 9x, Windows NT

G6 FTP Server- -Windows 9x, Windows NT, Windows 2k

HTTPd for- -OS/2 OS/2

Hawkeye- -Linux

Jigsaw- -Java_VM

Meta HTML Web Server- -Unix

Microsoft personal Web Server- -Windows 9x

OmniHTTPd Pro- -Windows 9x

PlanetWide- -OS2

Roxen WebServer- -Digital UNIX, AIX, HPUX, Linux, FreeBSD, IRIX, Solaris,
Windows 9x, Windows NT

Savant- -Windows 9x, Windows NT

Vermillion- -FTP Daemon Windows 9x, Windows NT

WFTPD- -32-bit Windows 9x

Xitami- -NetBSD, Digital UNIX, BSDI, AIX, OS/2, SCO, HPUX, Linux, VMS, QNX,
FreeBSD, IRIX, Solaris, Windows 3.x, Windows 9x, Windows NT

vqServer- -NetBSD, Digital UNIX, BSDI, AIX, OS/2, Java_VM, SCO, HPUX, Macintosh, Be OS, Linux, FreeBSD, IRIX, Solaris, Windows 9x, Windows NT - Xerver Free Web Server is a tiny fast web server allowing you to run CGI scripts on your computer. Xerver also includes an FTP server. Xerver is GNU GPL open source software and contains many advanced features. A brief feature list: Run scripts (Perl, PHP etc.), create aliases (virtual directories), allow/deny directory listing, create your own error pages ("404 Not Found"), allow/deny CGI-scripts, password protected folders, choose your own index file extensions, share/unshare hidden files or files with certain file extensions, share unlimited folders etc. Xerver is a tiny, fast and free Web server, but is still advanced and supports HTTP/0.9, HTTP/1.0, HTTP/1.1 and all HTTP methods (GET, POST and HEAD).

This is a list of free web server software packages it is an incomplete list - listings like this tend to be outdated as soon as they are created.

There are also a lot more server packages available but following the theme of this site I have only listed those which were free when the list was compiled.

current mood: awake

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Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
7:42 am - PETA
When it comes to Steve Irwin "The Crocodile Hunter" PETA are neither surprised nor upset by his passing.

“It comes as no shock at all that Steve Irwin should die provoking a dangerous animal,” PETA’s Dan Mathews tells The Scoop. “He made a career out of antagonizing frightened wild animals, which is a very dangerous message to send to kids.”

let me tell you about Peta and Right groups.....

"Some of the Biggest Rights Abusers Hide Behind Right Groups and Movements" -BullettProff Monk 2003
I would not be surprised to fine worse animal abusers behind PETA

Steve Irwin was an Educator and loved animals and funded a shit-load of animal rescue and rehabilitation fronts including PETA and this is how they repay him?
yeah he was a but dumb to dangle his kid in front of a crocodile but come on....

If Peta had it's way and all hunters stopped hunting, all farmers didn't watch the livestock, all labs stopped testing, and all pets went wild..
There wold be Animal Over-population, Diseases across the world...
I mean what if Pig spit was the cure for Cancer and Cow eye jelly was the cure for Aids, Peta would trip out and say we cant kill Pigs and Cows just for that....

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Friday, September 8th, 2006
9:19 am

I have a few great ideas coming so I'll keep all of you posted

Click Here to view more about me.

current mood: amused

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Saturday, September 2nd, 2006
11:53 pm - y oh y
Wait!  Listen

I want to be there when the rain falls.
I want to be there when you're feeling cold.

I want to be there,
when all who you call friends- have gone.
I want to be there when your world ends.

Wait! Listen carefully.

I want to be there when the rain falls.
In my arms, I will shelter you.
I want to be there when you're feeling cold.
For my love can keep you warm.

I want to be there,
when all who you call friends have gone.
I want you to call me more than a friend.
I want to be there when your world ends.
For my world will end there, too.

Don't judge a book by it's cover.
Don't judge someone too soon.
For the person you may want to spend your life with.
May have just entered the room.


complain all u want the most beautiful parts of file are living, children, and loving

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Sunday, August 27th, 2006
11:16 pm - I can write about the Acropolis in Athens
I can write about the Acropolis in AthensAs the sun goes down and the night chases onIt is so beautiful.I could imagine the Taj MahalIvory towers and crystal watersIt is surely beautifulA baby's skin against it's woollen coverAsleep, perfect as a dollThat is beautifulAnd as warm rain flows through the forest canopyDark and wet, yet refreshing, excitingA thing of beautyA view, a scene, the sea on the beach foamingA countryside trail, a high mountain rangeNatural beautyThe red soil of Mars, the clear sky at nightA pearl in an oysterTo some, such beautyI can think of others, the sound of soft musicThe beat of a bird's wingListen to such beautyThe aroma of spice, ozone and the seaThe dark smell of sensuousnessFantasize the beautyTo label beauty, to define its sheen and auraIs impossible as clasping at airBut I have seen it; I have seen what it isTo rival and match, to outshine them allSo precious and deep, her eyes, my heart leapsHer lips, her cheeks, flushed with prettinessThe small vibrations, slight quiver of her handThe smooth undulations of formI now know beauty, I have touched it and seenAnd it's you, it's you .. you have touched my heartAnd I will love you and care for youBecause you are total beauty inside and out


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Sunday, July 30th, 2006
6:05 pm - Stop thinking, and end your problems - Lao Tzu
It's simple how live gets easier and happier the moment you stop thinking, life is terribly simple, we're only cause life to be horrible by thinking constantly and not spending anytime to really enjoy what we have....

we should stop mounting our problems upon one another,
we should stop worrying about impressing others ad stop fighting,

just stop, sit back and enjoy the day...

if we did all this like would be a paradise

current mood: Enlightened

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Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
2:09 pm - news
I created a new forum called the House Of Blue Feathers it's a cyber Shaolin temple as well as a forum of enlightenment and emlightening discussions on multiple topics...


feel free to join if your open-minded

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Sunday, June 25th, 2006
11:10 am - My Birthday is June 30th
My Birthday is June 30th

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Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
5:08 pm - whats wrong
whats wrong?
no really? whats wrong with people?

does every one always have to fixate of the negative all the time?
i mean friend break up over the stupidest shit, lovers too
one small mess up and it's a no-holds bared war..

she did/said this/that so now there my enemy

cant we think back and try to count all the good someone did
does not good out-weigh bad?

you help out your friends a billion times, your there for them a trillion times...
but you trip up once and they hate you forever.... come on people

it happens to everyone one...
cant we strive past mistakes?

what happened to love, compassion and understanding that most claim they want?

must we blindly judge and stereotype each other?
is there no chance for true equality?

current mood: aggravated

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Saturday, June 10th, 2006
8:44 pm - holier-than-though attitude

I'll be the 1st to admit i'm not perfect, i studied all my life to learn what i know

The holier-than-though go around acting like there better than everyone else

The  Judgmental, go around forming options about everything and seeing fault with everything without ample prof or provoking... 

Then there is the poser/wanna-be they go around pretending to be something that there not
like a vampire; "I have yet to meat someone who claimed to be a vampire and be able to back it up.."

Then there is the whiner (me) they wine about every little thing...

i won't talk about depressives or manic depressives who cant help there situations without the help of meds

but allot of ppl need help
they need to stop and think, open there minds and play fair
i could list a few by why? they know who they are
i'm not perfect but at least i admit it

that i guess sets me apart


current mood: irate

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5:45 pm - stereotypes

so many ppl say stereotypes  they say they don't do that and they hate being stereotyped,

they claim to be open minded yet there mind's and heart are so closed tight

they judge others without proof or provocation

they can't back up anything

i hate ppl like that..

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Thursday, June 1st, 2006
1:10 pm - the bible and cutting of hair
the bible and cutting of hair
  1. Leviticus 19:27
    " 'Do not cut the hair at the sides of your head or clip off the edges of your beard.(as some Idolitor's and Heathen's do)
    Leviticus 19:26-28 (in Context) Leviticus 19 (Whole Chapter)
  2. 2 Samuel 14:26
    Whenever he cut the hair of his head—he used to cut his hair from time to time when it became too heavy for him—he would weigh it, and its weight was two hundred shekels by the royal standard.
    2 Samuel 14:25-27 (in Context) 2 Samuel 14 (Whole Chapter)
  3. Jeremiah 7:29
    Cut off your hair and throw it away; take up a lament on the barren heights, for the LORD has rejected and abandoned this generation that is under his wrath.
    Jeremiah 7:28-30 (in Context) Jeremiah 7 (Whole Chapter)
  4. Acts 18:18
    [ Priscilla, Aquila and Apollos ] Paul stayed on in Corinth for some time. Then he left the brothers and sailed for Syria, accompanied by Priscilla and Aquila. Before he sailed, he had his hair cut off at Cenchrea because of a vow he had taken.
    Acts 18:17-19 (in Context) Acts 18 (Whole Chapter)
  5. 1 Corinthians 11:6
    If a woman does not cover her head, she should have her hair cut off; and if it is a disgrace for a woman to have her hair cut or shaved off, she should cover her head.
    1 Corinthians 11:5-7 (in Context) 1 Corinthians 11 (Whole Chapter)

so as you can clearly see God wants us to have long hair, men an women
but i won't tell you to grow yours out so don'r ask me to cut mine...

doesn not nature it's self prove that it is a sin to cut your hair?
if the hair is meant to be short it whouldn't grow at all!

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Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
6:02 pm - sigh
what did i do wrong?
a certain someone is not answering my im's on yahoo

current mood: sad

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Monday, May 8th, 2006
5:15 pm - does it matter?
does it matter?
do i matter?
who cares?
who really cares about me?
stand up!
Raise your hand!

Tell me why you care!

show me...

you know where i am...

post something...

games are over now...
it's tme to grow up...
time to forgive or go away...

the choice is yours

current mood: awake

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Sunday, May 7th, 2006
9:32 pm - Wow a Testimonial
Spirtiowl2000 @ writes saying

I met raven on yahoo 360,
I saw this person and thought I need to meet
Im'd him and got no answer,
then I said Buzz me when you get a chance,
no more and two seconds later he buzzed me,
and there began a great friendship.
Wen I met Raven, I was on a down,
I had just recently lost my legs.
Didn't even care if I walked again or not.
He gave me hope,
but also a reason to wake up in the morning.
Raven did so much for me,
got me my Certificate of Ordination,
made me the most kick-ass website,and continues to work on it for me,
improving it,
this site will give me the independence I have been dreaming of.
Raven is one of the most honest trustworthy people I know.
I have come to love him and care for him deeply.
I have never been with someone who is so funny,
so loving ,
so sensitive,and warm.And he is so intelligent and knowledgeable on almost any subject.
and a fucking genius with the computer.
This guy can find anything about anything in seconds.
And he is talented.
from making music,
to poetry,
and art,
and has desires of being a filmmaker,
which I sure he will excel at.
For me raven is my dark Angel,
he watches over me,
helps me,
he has won my heart.
I trust this guy so much I want to go into business with him.
I just wanted everyone to know what he means to me,
and just how special he is.
This is not to say he is perfect,
he has his moments,
he can be dark,
very dark,
and moody,
that is why I call him my dark angel,
but angel none the less.
And beware his wit,
it can be lethal.
He loves to play jokes,
I warn you.
And if you don't take chance to really get to know this guy,
all I can say is it's your loss.

wow someone approves of me

current mood: feeling better

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7:15 pm - one to Manny
you've turned me away too many times
your no longer welcome until you can open your mind and forgive,
you refuse to listing to logic or understand that i made one shitty mistake, you say you don't wasn't judgment then don't you judge, you say you want Fairness then you be Fair
I'm done... i also know a secret...
one that can get you into bad troble... but I'm not vengefully like that
i believe in infinite chanced to renew and forgive, so again i offer you this
friend or foe....
the choice is yours and yours alone....

oh and your powers Have no effect on me you'll need to come and hurt me.. but are you willing to serve tome in a fed pen for that?

you just lost the best that will ever happen to you, don't force me into a corner i will bite back

current mood: Outcast
6:41 am - alone
not one word i could write nor say would explain how i feel....
I'm sorry i hurt you,
but i am hurt as well,
i just wanted to be with you and not in this hell
you were my sunrise and sunset,
my warmth and my pain
you were my muse when it began to rain
i tried to Cherish you,
but like the fool i stumbled onto my face,
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
nor shall i ever be,
but i did love you and offered it true and free,
now my skin grows cold,
by heart to glass,
i must sit here in darkness
how long will this curse last

Edward David Heath II

isn't if odd how sitting all night in the dark woods crying and playing one flute an make you feel worse

current mood: alone, apologetic, depressed

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Saturday, May 6th, 2006
10:56 pm - i thought.... but could i have been wrong?
she said i was perfect that my words had no bound...
she said she wanted me always and forever...
were my words a waist, did my feelings not matter?
will one mistake lock all roads
where i showed kindness all i receive is closed ears...
she said she could never turn on those who needed her..
will I need her... now

would she make herself a liar?
beak a heart and promised never to break
she said she's be mine always.. where is she now?

i said i was sorry, yet she never needed nor will need to apoligise...

i guess i am nothing, i was right all along in judging myself
i am a looser
who none can love, i sit here alone in my dark corner

always as i have be for..


sometimes i wish i could die
that o could end it..
I've tried before I'll try again now...

but not even heave and hell want me
I'll be forced back

into this body and alone forever

current mood: Near Suicidal

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